Itās been a little quiet on the blog lately, and I wanted to check inānot because I feel like I have to, but because writing still feels like home, even when life pulls me in twelve directions at once.
The past week has been⦠a whirlwind. I just got back from vacation (which was lovely), and basically the second I got home, real life looked at me and said, āWelcome back, hope youāre ready to sprint.ā Spoiler alert: I wasnāt.
First came the Indy 500āa sacred tradition in my family and honestly one of the most emotionally charged, beautiful, overstimulating events Iāve ever been to. Between the roar of the engines, the crowds, the beer, the goosebumps during TAPS, and maybe a little weed, Iāve needed a few days to mentally and physically recover. (Sensory overload is real, yāall.)
The night before the race? Oh, just me staying up until 2 a.m. helping my boyfriend assemble what can only be described as The Worldās Most Evil DIY Desk. Like, this desk might be haunted. It came with 200 pieces and emotional damage. But we did it. Kind of. I think.
Also, I still havenāt unpacked from vacation. At this point, Iām just pulling clean-ish things from it like itās a makeshift dresser with commitment issues.
Speaking of sorority thingsāIāve got some catching up to do. While I was away, I tried to unplug a bit, which means now Iām re-plugging with a vengeance and going through AAC emails like Iām Indiana Jones dodging boulders.
Ohāand I start a part-time job tomorrow. Just something low-key to help out at my boyfriendās law office. It feels aligned, supportive, and chill⦠which is the exact opposite of how my nervous system is reacting, but weāre breathing through it.
Also, the Pacers are in the playoffs, which means there’s been a lot of yelling at the TV, celebratory pacing, and emotional investment in players I didnāt know the names of three months ago. Worth it.
All of this is just to say: Iāve been busy. Not in the hustle-culture, rise-and-grind kind of wayābut in the messy, human, āhow do I do all of this and still be myself?ā kind of way.
And while I havenāt had much time to paint, read, or write⦠Iāve been living. Which counts for something. Maybe even everything.
So if youāve been feeling behind or out of sorts or like your creative self has been hiding under a pile of responsibilitiesāI see you. I am you.
New posts are coming soon. I just needed a second to catch my breathāand maybe find a clean pair of socks.
